Are there any other schizophrenics in tech doing cool things?

Are there any other schizophrenics in tech doing cool things?

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  1. 3 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    I'm a formally diagnosed schizophrenic currently learning langdev.

    My goal in life is to some day write my own compiler then write my own OS in it.

    Which is funny because that's essentially the same thing Terry Davis did.

    • 3 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      What do the voices say and do you know they aren't real?

      • 3 weeks ago
        Anonymous

        I'm on heavy medication (Zyprexa/Olanzapine) so the voice in my head doesn't come around as often as it used to before.

        But sometimes it asks me what I'm doing, or who someone is, sometimes it tells me to hurt myself (which I've done before, and recently.)

        The hard part is when I'm having a psychotic episode, it's harder to not do what the voices tell me to do. Like just recently I had one, and I ended up cutting my arm with a kitchen knife because I've done it before to make the voice go away. I ended up having to go over to my parents house until it stopped.

        But when I'm not having a psychotic episode, it 's a bit "easier" to ignore what the voice says.

        • 3 weeks ago
          Anonymous

          Sorry to hear that. My friend is bipolar so I've dealt with similar. things irl. I don't know anything about neuroscience but the brain is strange.

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            Yeah I fully know how weird the human brain is. I also study mental disorders as well. The cause of schizophrenia is still widely unknown. And it's even weirder because I don't have a family history of mental illnesses, yet I won the lottery being diagnosed with Autism, ADHD, and Schizophrenia.

            I do have a family history of dementia though, so that'll be fun when I get into my 60's.

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            Do you believe in God?

        • 3 weeks ago
          Anonymous

          have you tried not eating for like 4 days

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            When I was going through depression, I did starve myself for several days. Not eating anything, or really drinking anything. I ended up attempting suicide shortly after this through alcohol poisoning. After not eating or drinking anything for many days, I got several bottles of alcohol (vodka/bourbon) and drank until I wasn't conscious anymore. I didn't really care if I ended up waking up.

            Do you believe in God?

            Yes I do. I'm a protestant Christian. I've had my fair share of skepticism in the past though and I can understand why it's so hard for other people to believe in God.

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            Do you ask yourself why God would do this to you? I always wonder with disorders and things like that. What is the real you? Since disorders, medications, physical brain damage, memories, and such can have such drastic effects on what makes a person a person.. what is your soul? What actually makes you you?

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            I've indeed asked myself why would I believe in a God that would allow me to have such issues.
            But my answer is that even though I've been dealt this bad hand, it can show just how strong my faith is that I still believe even though I haven't been healed.

            It's like the story of James, who was one of Jesus's disciples who had a physical ailment with walking and asked Jesus why he wasn't healed. And Jesus essentially explained to him that he will be able to give a unique and special testimony as someone who still believes even after not being healed.
            Another way I see it, is not that God did this to me, but that it's a consequence of living in an unclean world.

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            >Jesus essentially explained to him that he will be able to give a unique and special testimony as someone who still believes even after not being healed.
            that sounds fricking moronic

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            Your faith is good. Never accept trinitarian doctrine and accept the messiah as a fellow creation of God. Satan is a spirit, distinct from the lingering souls of the deceased, and spirits primarily want to shame you and glorify themselves in juxtaposition. The way in which they do this most widely is demanding of mankind acts of servitude usually attached with various promises. Everyone has a spirit that follows them constantly and the spirit can believe or reject God the same as you. God is The Light of the heavens and the earth and His glory shines within you and upon you, you just need to accept His grace and submit to it.

        • 3 weeks ago
          Anonymous

          bullshit

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous
          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            do you wanna see my big bottle of unused seroquel ?

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            It doesn't really matter to me. From what I've heard, Seroquel/quetiapine is more used to treat issues with mood instability rather than hallucinatory issues which is what Zypexa/Olanzapine is designed for.

            can't you just say no to the voice? how does this work?

            Hallucinations are believed to be due to an overactive dopamine production in the brain. I've talked to the voice before and have tried yelling at it to stop, but because it's largely a chemical based issue, the voice doesn't just go away because you ask it to.

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            I mean can't you tell him no in your head? can't you ignore him at least? just because he tells you to have a nice day or whatever you can ignore him, no?

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            Like I said before, when I'm not in a psychotic episode, it's a bit easier to ignore what the voice is saying.

            The main problem is when I (or someone else with schizophrenia or in a manic state with bipolar) am in a psychotic episode, I don't know that I'm actually in a psychotic episode. When I'm in one, the voice or my delusions seemed logical.

            For example: One time when I was in a psychotic episode, I thought the government was spying on me directly. What happened was, I was on a drive from my house and I thought I saw someone out my window taking a picture to me. Then I thought the radio was speaking directly to me (I yelled at the radio to stop). Then when I got home, I got a text message from one of those military recruiters. So because all these things lined up, I had legitimately believed the government was actively surveilling me.

            The horror of these kinds of issues, is that what is happening to you seems logical. It seems rational. Even though to everyone else, it doesn't.

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            when you think the radio is talking to you, what is it actually saying? like you think the weather forecast is talking directly to you? what is it saying? or is the radio actually off and part of the delusion is that the radio is on?

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            I couldn't understand what exactly it was saying. I was trying to ignore it. It was one of those ads where the person is talking really fast.

            I just wanted it to stop because it was so annoying so I yelled at it and hit it then eventually turned it off.

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            interesting. schizophrenia is a weirdly fascinating illness.

            also can depressed people be schizos? like they don't have enough dopamine so they might be immune

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            >Then I thought the radio was speaking directly to me
            I'm not the other anon, but in those cases can you think something like "this isn't actually possible"? Because a guy taking pictures at you may seem logical in the real world (not that it will happen, but that it's just physically possible) but a radio talking directly to you would look like nonsense in a normal state, do you lose the ability to recognize what can and cannot happen in the real world in those cases? Sorry if the question is a bit weird but i'm just curious

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            You're fine. And the answer to your question is an absolute "Yes."

            That is the very nature of a "psychotic" episode. It is the complete withdrawal from sane reasoning and logic, and essentially means someone is detached from reality. They cannot think rationally like a normal person would. They have lost the ability to connect what is "real" from what is "imaginary" since what is imaginary seems rational and logical when they are in their state.

            Another example of a psychotic episode I had: One night, the voice in my head kept telling me that I had to kill my cat (whom I loved very much, and (the cat) was staying at my parents) otherwise my mind was going to be "attacked" if I went to sleep. It (the voice) kept repeating this over and over and over again. And then I had experienced the "Pareidolia" effect, which is like where you see a face on an object or something. Except what I saw was a face and a cat "attacking" it on my computer screen. I had thought that the "face" was representing me, and the cat attacking it, represented my cat. And so because I saw this on my computer screen, I thought this was "proof" that I did indeed need to kill my cat by stabbing it to death (I had specifically chosen stabbing because I had a dream of myself doing it before). But because my parents took away my house key to their house prior to this (because I told them about my dream, so they took away my house key) I was not able to. So I ended up sleeping in very quick shifts (sleep for an hour then wake up, repeatedly) as to not allow my mind to be attacked.

            TL;DR When someone is in a "psychotic" episode, they cannot think in a rational and sane manner. This is why we (at least in the US) have a not-guilty by insanity appeal. Because of disorders like this, can cause people to lose touch with reality.

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            spooky shit. thanks for sharing I guess.

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            Thank you for your answer anon, I understood better what it means now, that's legit scary. Take care, I hope you'll get better

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            Sorry to get depressing but from what I read about bipolar it gets worse as you age. Does schizoprenia? Are you scared one day you will be fully gone forever?

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            I am a little worried about what will happen as I get older, but I try not to let that effect me.
            I try to have fun and be productive with the time I have. If I spend my time worrying about what may happen in the future, then I will end up missing the time I currently have to do what I like.

            All I can do right now, is take my medication and continue doing my therapy, and use the time I have left to live life as much as I can.

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            good luck, anon

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            I had Med induced Schizo voices once, though apparently that doesn't count.
            Never again.
            Godspeed anon.

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            i have it for a bipolar schizoaffective disorder, so im on a larger dose 200mg, used to take what you take and it made me twitch.

        • 3 weeks ago
          Anonymous

          can't you just say no to the voice? how does this work?

        • 3 weeks ago
          Anonymous

          bump. are you still here anon?

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            Yes I am

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            i was wondering
            >how does the voice sound like?
            >have you ever tried to fight with it?

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            It's a deeper (than mine) male voice.

            For your second question, I guess so? I've argued with it before. I'm not entirely sure what you mean by "fight with it".

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            like bullying or taunting it kek. i don't understand why you can't ignore it but i guess i wouldn't get it.

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            Imagine trying to ignore an itch that also interferes with your ability to move.

            It's like that. The "itch" is the voice and takes over your thoughts.

          • 3 weeks ago
            Anonymous

            i see. thanks for sticking around and god bless.

    • 3 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      Write the OS first, then write the compiler.

      • 3 weeks ago
        Anonymous

        Why? Writing a compiler seems like it would be an easier task, no?

        I should also mention, I am trying to get into langdev/osdev professionally eventually.

    • 3 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      you're diagnosed with preddit spacing too, that's a pretty serious condition.

  2. 3 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    Not a schizo, but the guy that wrote the Serenity operating system was a recovering drug addict. But it's POSIX so it's not that innovative.

    • 3 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      That explains why he doesn't want to make an ISO.. he doesn't like sharing.

  3. 3 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    im a schizo but my job in tech isnt cool

  4. 3 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    jeff

  5. 3 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    Why doesn't getting committed automatically get you NEETbux? It's not like I'm employable anymore.

  6. 3 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    terry davies let down by 1. the state
    2. IQfy
    its not like you are civilised, decent people
    creative people get crushed

  7. 3 weeks ago
    Anonymous

    Schizophrenia isn't real.
    morons, all of your brains are connected to the internet, the voices your listening to are some butthole glowie or some vagrant AI trolling your stupid ass.

    • 3 weeks ago
      Anonymous

      Why the frick is it so hard for moron humanity to accept that there brains are nodes on the internet like everything else is?

      • 3 weeks ago
        Anonymous

        Schizophrenia isn't real.
        morons, all of your brains are connected to the internet, the voices your listening to are some butthole glowie or some vagrant AI trolling your stupid ass.

        Because the massive mental illness push in society is a government psyop and everything on the internet is a gov op run by shills.
        They want to put a neural link in your head and call you insane for suggesting that they put a computer chip in your brain and lock you up in an asylum at the same time.

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