It Happened To Me: he beat up my BF & I can't stop masturbating to it I try to fight it so hard when these thoughts come into my head, but I have no idea what to do.

I've been with my BF for two years. Things have been going great as we adjust to post-college life. We're talking about getting married and what we want the future to look like. It's been such a fun adventure to share with him.

My BF's social circle is pretty testosterone driven. They all played sports together in college. They still play together through some local leagues, but they hang out a lot too. Not everyone is friendly with one another, but they all share the same interest, so they all end up hanging out.

Two weeks ago we were at a house party with these guys and one guy (I'll call him Dylan) was being a total ass to a lot of people, but as the night went on, he focused in on my BF especially.

Dylan is one of the more obnoxious people in the group, and while some people enjoy his company, my BF and I do not.

Dylan ended up taking things too far and a fight started between him and my BF. The end result for my BF was not good – he basically struggled to get back up while Dylan insulted him.

My BF has (understandably) been seething about this the past two weeks and I've been pretty pissed too.

But lately I've been having these intrusive thoughts about Dylan.

It started when a picture he was tagged in showed up on my FB feed. I just kind of noticed things about him I had never seen before. I'll find myself at work suddenly thinking about his arms or something.

It makes me feel fucking awful. Like I'm betraying my BF. I don't want to find Dylan attractive or have these fantasies, but they keep happening.

Last night I was with my BF while he and some of these people played a pickup game of basketball. Dylan showed up after a while and joined the skins team. The minute he took off his shirt, I was overwhelmed with all of these fucking terrible thoughts. I ended up just looking at my phone to try and distract myself.

My BF and I left shortly after Dylan arrived (BF understandably wanted to leave because he couldn't stomach being around Dylan). The worst part is I couldn't help myself when I got home and I ended up masturbating while thinking about Dylan without his shirt.

I feel so incredibly guilty this morning that I've been crying on and off for a few hours now. I want this to stop, but I have no idea what to do. I try to fight it so hard when these thoughts come into my head. I thought I was doing better, but last night I ended up going farther than I ever had before and it sickens me to my stomach.

How do I stop these thoughts? How do I cope with my guilt from last night?

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  1. Damn...
    Yes hello, Dr. Freud. I'm sorry for making fun of you on Twitter, you were right about absolutely everything.

  2. Reading shit like this makes me understand the mental fragility of the female mind. Let me be blunt on the subject of keeping your woman. Women want to be dominated like a pack of yappy little dogs, they need direction and a reason to be. Once you show a soft side they will fantasize about an Alpha pounding the Hell out of them. Become a Goddam wolf and lead them by their pussies because all women's thoughts are driven by their vaginas and you be a fool not to understand this basic shit.

  3. It's normal, your boyfriend is probably an unmanly, sensitive, weak, feminist vegan, anti-racist, pro-lgbt person. So in your mind he's a good person, but your subconscious knows he's a sub-human driven to extinction by natural selection. You are a woman and despite your ideology your instinct pushes you to breed with a dominant male, that is to say a strong, aggressive and conquering man who will dominate you. I advise you to leave your boyfriend and become a whore.

  4. "If the person you're lusting after is off limits because one of you is already in a relationship, or pursuing them could complicate other areas of your life, thinking things through rationally is key. "Strong sexual attraction is often a matter of desiring novelty and the unknown," says O’Reilly. "When you’re physically attracted to someone you don’t know well, your mind may subconsciously fill in the blanks to create an ideal sexual partner; You assume that they’re good in bed, kind, compassionate, attentive, loving, funny, and charming because you want to like them." However, the truth is that no one's perfect. So, O’Reilly emphasizes the importance of realizing that your impression of them probably isn't fully in line with the reality of who they are. "

  5. I am not an expert but:

    1. Think about your boyfriend and the good times with him and masturbate about him instead.
    2. See a psychologist as long as your boyfriend doesn't find out.

  6. That's biology speaking to you - your body wants to produce offspring with a strong man. You could discuss with your BF if he'll allow a semen donation from Dylan so you can get the strongest possible boy or girl when/if you're ready for children. If he's a real man he'll be happy to "upgrade" so to speak. They'll be better equipped to take care of him when he gets old.

      • Maybe go out with Dylan but only have anal with him. It’s not technically cheating, but may get it out of your system.

        If you can manage to keep Dylan’s semen inside your rear passage and head home to your BF, your sex with your boyfriend may be elevated too and this may help you get over your Dylan problem because you can associate Dylan’s seed inside of you with your BF now.


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