I need a book that will radically change my perspective on life.
Idc if its hard copium, it's a matter of survival at the point I am. I hate life and living. Every day that passes feel meaningless and actively painful. I'm growing older, I know my time is limited, and all I see is that I'm despising the time I was given. It's not what I want but I can't seem to escape this mindstate where even consciousness seems like a curse. I've been like this for over 10 years, I'm now in my 30s. The hope I har of breaking through this is basically non-existent now. Before you suggest gay shit like therapy, I've done it, I've been on multiple antidepressant this doesnt work. My problem is purely philosophical/mindset that stops me from just enjoying life.
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It's exercise you need, not books. For the next week, I want you to start your day with a 30-minute run. After the run, perform jumping lunges to failure. Go home, shower (end with 45s cold shower), then breakfast. In the evening do some push ups and pull ups. Abstain from drugs and alcohol. Also stop smoking. No binge eating. Just maintain a healthy diet. You will feel better in no time!
I cook all my food and eat healthy, work out 5 days a week too. I wake at 5 for work and sleep at 9. I'm not a shut in loser who has chemical imbalance from sitting in front of a screen 16h a day and slopmaxxing
reheating delivery goyslop doesn't count as cooking, frank, even if you put cheese on it
But I have bad knees
>Stop smoking
I love how people always say this so casually in a list of things like It isn't genuinely one of the hardest things you'll ever do.
Exercise just distracts you from the mental pain by replacing it with physical pain. It is effective for a short time until the mental pain comes back. For me, the fuel that I am lonely and unloved powers runs of over 30 minutes and lifting 90 kg weights. However, the pain comes back after a while. The only solutions that actually work are getting friends (and lovers), or dying. However, big words for someone who hasn't had a friend group for over a decade and has had 1 lover.
>hurr durr what book will fix that i'm a total loser
offtopic, despite your attempt to stretch it into the realm of IQfy
quit your whining, frank. you dug yourself into this hole with your pathological lack of self-awareness
Ok, what book can help me change this?
you'll never take the advice you really need, but at least you'd spend your daddy's fortune on something worthwhile
Im looking into this. Its written by scientology founder? Kek sounds like a scam
It's not a scam. The real problem is that, early on, Ron uncovered MK Ultra and figured out how to reverse the damage. The Deep State went ape-shit, and it's been hell for Scn ever since. Source: the "hypnotic level" section of 1951's "Science Of Survival"
Any literary novel. And then another one and then another one. You should be able to see parts of yourself in different characters, and then see the faults in those characters, and there you have it: self-awareness. But don't get caught up on any one novel even if you relate to it especially easily
Reverend Insanity
This a manga?
No. A web novel.
Read some of it. Actual trash ChatGPT tier and this is 10x the length of war and peace. No way Im reading this lol
How many chapters did you read?
NTA but I've read slightly more than 100 chapters and honestly it's kind of dull, who gives a shit about sociopath pokemon anyway
What's relevant is his character and his drive to do and achieve things. He is a very opposite of a man (minus sociophaty) who is lost and doesn't know what to do with his life. Figure out what exactly that is maybe you can make use it to help yourself in your personal life.
10, its literally written like teenage fanfiction
Bronze Age Mindset
The Bible.
I would recommend meditating, but the problem is if you've never done it you won't know if you're doing it properly, so you might end up writing it off.
this really. meditation is the one thing that truly changed my life. if you recognize that everything is just an appearance in consciousness, then they won't have any power over you.
Realizing that, 'you are not this next thought' is the most important task one can embark upon.
Really, just sit quietly, and focus on you breath, in and out. If your mind wanders, and it will, you return to the sensations of breathing.
I promise you if you do this, you'll be able to experience life in a non-dual clarity that cannot be achieved elsewhere.
Your consciousness is already free from the problems you impose upon it.
Books are only supplemental, the practice of meditation is essential. If you can't do it in silence. Download Medito, it's a free app, everything is free in it. It will guide you step by step.
If you need something to read. Read 'Tracing Back The Radiance' by Chinul.
I'll take this tip seriously and try it. I'll get the app also.
I meditate and it does nothing for me.
That's like saying eating does nothing to satiate your hunger. Like I said, the problem with meditation is that it's easy to not know if you're doing it right.
Think of it like clearing your PC's RAM. Throughout the day(s) or week(s) you slowly build up useless lingering thoughts.
Eventually those thoughts create a bias for all your new thoughts (perception). Eventually all your thoughts have that [often negative] underlying bias (attitude). And finally, you reach a point where you are so saturated in your heavily biased thoughts that you learn to identify yourself AS those thoughts (personality). Now you're trapped in a dark place. Your perception of reality is literally being distorted by these thoughts that have metastasized for days/weeks/months/years (reality).
Remember that your thoughts are not reality; they are merely an interpretation of reality. If you're constantly depressed, you just have a distorted interpretation of reality.
>That's like saying eating does nothing to satiate your hunger
I feel differently when I don't eat for long periods of time. I feel differently when I don't exercise for long periods of time. I feel the same when I don't meditate for long periods of time.
Then the question you should ask yourself, is have you really meditated before?
How could I tell? Every source I've read says something along the lines of 'sit quietly with your eyes closed and focus on your breath. When your attention wanders, return focus to your breathing.' I can do that, but there is no feedback mechanism to tell me if I am doing it right.
>sit quietly with your eyes closed and focus on your breath. When your attention wanders, return focus to your breathing
This is not meditation. This is only preparation for meditation, akin to stretching before the gym. Meditation is nothingness. There are no thoughts. There is no focus. Meditation is detachment from those things that appear to be "you", but are not you.
What you described is basically a preparatory process of becoming aware of your thoughts as separate to you. But that's not detachment. That's like seeing your computer is running slowly so you open your task manager and see a whole bunch of useless shit, but you don't clear the useless processes.
Ok. So how do I meditate?
I'll explain my own process:
1. Preparing the body. Basically what you described earlier. Sit quietly, slow your breath, become aware of your thoughts. Do not fight your thoughts. Your goal is not to force your thoughts out, but to get into a state of mind where you recognize your thoughts as separate from yourself. Observe and let the thoughts pass through you as they come. Getting into this proper state takes practice. At first it might take up to 10 minutes to get into this state, if you do at all. Keep practicing. You'll know when you reach it. One way to gauge if you're in the correct state is that you'll be able to observe your life's deepest worries without any emotion.
2. Once you're in a state where you are consciously separate from your thoughts, the next step is to release those thoughts (like clearing your RAM). I use visualization. Every inhale, visualize a pure white light filling your body. Every exhale, visualize your thoughts, feelings, concerns, fears, etc. being ejected from your body. I visualize it as a black smoke getting firmly pushed out. Every exhalation feel your mind becoming clearer and clearer until there's nothing left to eject. If certain thoughts and worries make you feel any emotions as you eject them, it means you have not successfully completed the first step. Again, this takes practice.
2B. This step might seem a little woowoo to you, so you can skip it if you like. But once I've ejected my thoughts I like to initiate the state of pure emptiness by visualizing a searing white light going into my body from my tailbone, up my spine, to the top of my head with a deep inhalation. So I visualize myself becoming a pillar of brilliant light.
3. If you succeed, your mind will be empty. You will have no desire to think or do anything. It will feel good. All your worries are gone. Nothing is wrong, nothing can be wrong. You are You, someone different than who you've always thought yourself to be. You are taking a break from the game of life. Stay in this state for as long as you like.
4. Refill your mind with positive shit. Now that your mind is cleared out, it's time to establish the mental state that you want, rather than the one that was previously imposed on you. Start visualizing yourself achieving the things you want in life. If you have nothing specific in mind, simply visualize yourself being happy. Feel as if what you visualize is reality. Know that you get to choose. Once you've established your chosen state of being (and you actually feel like you're actually in that state), you're done.
For me, this whole process takes about 10 minutes per day. You might do well to simply practice only one step daily until you've got it down.
Prometheus Rising by Robert Anton Wilson
- read it
- do the exercises (important)
It will not change your life, you will literally program your life to be whatever you want.
After this, you can jump to
Initiation Into Hermetics by Franz Bardon (Publisher: Deiter Ruggeberg, the other one has bad translation) and you can begin to explore higher entities. This book also has the best explaination of meditation.
Commit the philosophical suicide Camus spoke of. What good is philosophy anyway, if it isn't enhancing the brilliance of life?
Meditation can be good for that, as is getting acquainted with Zen. I recommend the sayings of Joshu.
Where did camus say this? Im not very familliar with his works
When I first read the preface to Culture of Narcissism it was seriously like looking in a mirror. If I hadnt known any better, I would have checked my window to make sure he hadn't been watching me.
Lasch is a must read for any american.
The Bible.
What about none Americans? I saw it on the 'Paleo-Conservatism' chart and it grabbed my attention.
Thanks Ill check it out. I definitely have a self centered mindset (as any depressed person does). I find it very hard to care for anyone. Idk if its related to the book at all but anyway.
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Sartor Resartus, especially the three chapter sequence "Everlasting No," "Centre of Indifference," and "Everlasting Yea." These describe the loss of spirituality, a numbness verging on the fatal, and the birth of a new spirituality.
>This ((media)) changed my life!!!
I stopped believing this in my twenties. I think people just like to say things. You need to take small cumulative actions to change your physical and material circumstance. And probably get therapy, but I'm sure you don't believe in that and/or don't have a reasonable way to access it if you live in the US.
Both lol. Materially finances are stressful but I don't feel like its the root of the problem at all
You might find reading about people's Near Death Experiences helpful. The basic new understanding amongst these individuals after they've had their NDE concerns the nature of love and its importance. A lot of them believe that the purpose of life on earth specifically is simply to learn how to love more, and is greatly life affirming. The fact their ideas are so specific and relatively complicated/spiritually unique has made me a 'believer' in them. While NDEs do not outright prove there is life after death, and thus that life itself is important and good, it's possibly stronger than what you may refer to as 'hard copium'.
This is a good place to begin reading, if you're inclined to do so:
https://www.nderf.org/Archives/exceptional.html
I wish you all the best, friend.
Maybe you can learn something from Levin in Anna Karenina or Pierre in War and Peace?
Ug Krishnamurti?
Dude Fight Club was written for you.
Unironically the movie gets me a lot. Is the book different? Or just more worth reading?
Super worth reading. People said the book was worse. I think they're both amazing.
magic mushrooms, bro
frank turned 35 today. literally no one cared