How can I read books, while I have serious concentration problems (ADHD), the self-discipline of a newborn, aphantasia (inability to imagine), toddler's vocalbulary and existing prejudices to written media?
I don't want to be challenged. I want to read about overpowered self-insert character that everybody respects, loves and compliments in an effort to escape from my own sad little life that is the exact opposite.
Read what you want, don't force yourself if you don't need to.
Sounds like Manga is right up your alley. I hear Berserk is pretty good. You can read it online.
I have already sucked anime/manga dry, which is why I have a need to expand to lit.
https://www.novelupdates.com/
Chinese webnovels are full self-insert Mary Sue
Korean webnovels are the same, but a bit less
Japanese webnovels are the most tame but is still self insert
I appreciate the recommendations. I have some experience of both. I guess the west doesn't cater to this need, since it's seen misogynistic or otherwise problematic here or something.
Read yuzusoft games and other moege, it’s literally what you described. There’s visuals, music, cute anime girls, etc
Here’s one to get you started https://vndb.org/v26414
Then do short stories and poems.
Beowulf
Hercules
The Odyssey
Have you read Conan stuff?
Have you read any vns? Most of them are like what you described, even the “serious” titles
Read Quotations from Chairman Mao Tse-tung while you eat. One bite, one quote.
This is not what you asked for, this is what you need.
Some other books are the cryptozoologicon, all tomorrows and all yesterdays. Pick which one you like the most. Read one page per day. Or one page every meal.
>Read one page per day. Or one page every meal.
Might work. Thanks.
Unironically start with capeshit and Shonen. Read these and use the lessons as fortitude to better yourself and move on to other comics and manga. Then, when you’ve gotten your fill, you should give novels a try
Don't start with the greeks
literally stop caring and just read, if you don't know where to start pick a book with a good looking cover, nothing will happen if you don't like it, you just pick another one and start reading again
>ADHD
>self-discipline of a newborn
>aphantasia
>toddler's vocalbulary
impressive stack but you should really stop caring anon, it's that easy
>picrel
this shouldn't work, it's such a simplification and it's so stupid it can only be a meme
and yet through the sheer strength of its moronation in the face of the complexity of existence it WORKS WITHOUT FAIL
entire philosophies get obliterated by the fact that this works and it's beautiful
You should consider living an examined life instead of an “I want to escape reality in my free time” life.
get comfortable sitting still and doing nothing. after youve practiced this, then sit at a desk or something with nothing but the book in front of you, and just sit still and wait for yourself to spontaneously start reading. then if you get distracted or panicked, don't run away but just go back to sitting and waiting to start spontaneously reading again. im pretty sure i have adhd and this is the only way I can focus. I can do this for four hours, but before that I spent a couple days doing nothing to practice being totally deprived, and I also sat in a circle doing nothing for 5 hours to practice.
also when I say "sit still" i just mean stay in the chair, not that you can't fidget or whatever
>I want to read about overpowered self-insert character that everybody respects, loves and compliments in an effort to escape from my own sad little life that is the exact opposite.
This is what old fashioned TV is for. Don't be fooled by suddenly having to chose, it's what's right for you. Netflix or pirate the classics. Forget about reading, you don't want to and no one needs you to.
Don't forget that everything you read on those "I'll help you with your tiny dick and lacking love life" sites is just to feed the sucker in you. Dosto is not for incels. Anyone who could read in the old Motherland, was a landed and married aristo, and the likes of you would be working the fields, or in the ledger of dead souls
Many such cases, anon . Why don't you go read McCarthy or play some vidya
Motivational issues are often a communication issue between current you, past you and future you.
Past you has set goals for current you, so that future you benefits from it. But instead of doing them, current you passes them on to future you (who then ends up being current you right now and is going: "WTF? past me told current me what to do, but it's just not doing it?").
The problem is caused by current you, past you and future you not being able to communicate directly, as well as past you not having the authority he needs. If past you and future you could talk directly, right now with current you (and both of them would probably be screaming at you right now and would keep screaming until you start moving), current you would probably address the problem.
If past you had authority over you, then current you would probably also listen. Because if you didn't, there would be a consequence. Instead, current you is passing the consequences to future you.
To fix it, you need to do two things: Start communications between past you, current you and future you and give past you authority over current you. You have to implement these changes permanently. You can't just implement it now and forget about, because if you do that, the same thing will go wrong at some point in the future.
How to start the communication (This is easy)
Current you can't directly talk to future you, because he doesn't exist yet, but you can imagine future you and you can talk with your imaginary future you.
Past you however, can directly communicate with current you, he's just not doing it. Here's how to do this:
First write down a high level plan current you might think it's all clear what needs to be done, but it's probably not that clear. You have to do it on paper, because future you is going to be a dick and not look at it, unless it's right in front of his face once in a while (You could also do it in paint and make it your wallpaper, but only if you occasionally see your wallpaper on your computer and if you know how to do that, otherwise, just use paper any paper). How to Create Your Five-Year Master Plan, Craft the Life You Want: Creating a Blueprint for Your Future. It won't take long to do. You can also add ongoing things to the list, like "keep my room clean", just don't go over the top. We want future you to have a decent life as well.
Just do it now. Like, stop reading and do it now - if you still aren't doing it now, you're just not interested in helping yourself and you probably have other issues going on that need to be addressed first. Probably something like fear of failure, depression or self esteem issues. If you need help with those, then reply and describe your symptoms and healthcare situation and I'll see if I can figure it out with you and how to get it fixed.
Now that you have the high level plan, first make sure it is achievable. If it isn't then first rewrite your plan until it is. Current you can break up the highest priority goal one into smaller steps, that are actionable. If at all possible, each step shouldn't be more than an hour of work. If it's more than an hour of work but doesn't have to be done at once, then just repeat the same step until the task is done. If you can't keep the steps in your head, write them down. Next what you do, is you need to let future you know, when to do that task. So figure out when you have time to do it, and then use technology to your advantage. Take your phone and set repeating alarm clock reminder for the time and day you have to do this task (not when to have it done, when to do the actual work). That does multiple things:
Don't schedule out more than a week in advance.
If future you ends up ignoring the alarm, he's probably not going to delete it, so a week later, his future you is going to get the alarm again.
make sure you start with *small tasks, especially early on. It's fine if they are 5 minute tasks. Don't overwhelm yourself.
You can repeat this if you want. Break high level tasks down into their actionable items and set repeating alarms in your phone. Don't go overboard though, current you is fairly lazy, so future you probably is as well, so if you set too many alarms, he's going to ignore them. One a day, I'd say (as time goes on and your discipline goes up, you could increase it, especially on the weekends, but don't overdo it).
How to give past you authority (this is harder)
Past you has been telling current you to do things, but current you just isn't doing it. Part of that is because past you didn't communicate clearly, which is now fixed with the written down plan and the individual steps that you've set phone alarms for. However, the other part of the problem is that there are no consequences if current you ignores past you.
That can be fixed, but you have only one chance to do it. Technically, what you are going to do, is condition yourself. You'll be training yourself to automatically respond to a stimulus. Let me repeat, if you screw this part up, the whole thing falls apart and nothing is going to change. You've now set a number of alarms in your phone, with labels of what to do when the alarm goes off. When that alarm goes off, you can use the snooze button or you do the task. If you really can't do it for some reason, then reschedule, but don't cheat, because future you is going to know and that's the same as not doing the task at all.
If you don't do the task at the time past you agreed with current you, there has to be a consequence. That consequence should be a task that you thought up beforehand, that's slightly more work than the outlined task and you dislike doing. Clean your house. Learn how to program on code.org. Go exercise for an hour. That's your negative reinforcement. Try to make that negative reinforcement be beneficial to your overall well being.
Again: If you end up ignoring the alarm, you will fail to condition yourself and your habit change won't form and nothing will change.
If you do the task at the time past you told current you to do it, You get to be proud of yourself. You did what you set out to do. You're on the path you set for yourself. Now you only have to do one last thing. You need to take your phone and set a repeating alarm for the next time and date when you can do the next actionable item (and set a short description in the label or else you'll forget). If you finish a goal, then find the first actionable item for the next goal and set that.
Start slowly, it's easy to fall into cycle of self dissapointment which lowers your self esteem over time, take steps to avoid that.
I have aphantasia and ADD and I've loved reading ever since I learned to.
The rest of the issues you mentioned are fixable.
I'd recommend:
1. Hide away electronics when you want to read. Minimize distractions and create a comfortable relaxing environment for reading.
2. Don't take notes, at least until you start to really love reading, because it tends to make reading feel more like a chore than an enjoyable use of time. If you really think something's really important to you, place a sticky note/tab and come back.
3. Start with smaller, simpler books.
4. Don't force yourself to read shit you aren't actually interested in just because it's on lit charts.
4. Live a healthier lifestyle overall. Eat healthier, sleep 8 hours, etc.
5. Psychiatrist (if all else above fails)
I dunno I'm also moronic and I enjoy reading sci-fi and Thomas Pynchon books. Somehow I can pay attention to them.